I'm starting to read again, I'm pretty certain. When going through Jordan's bookshelf for some books related to LGBT studies, for a video I was working on, I found the book Brave New World; which I'd been wanting to read for sometime. A part of me felt like reading it wouldn't be enough; I felt that I needed to buy it, as I read along. I felt that owning such a book was an important thing. But when I began to think about it, I realized that the book is never important. What is important about literature is how it changes you. The evolution of the reader: that's what is lasting and most important.
I'm to see who I'm becoming, each day, as I move forward in my life. I feel like I can see the changes, the lessons I've learned, in my actions each day; an enduring strength, an expanded moral compass, a greater resolve. I'm proud of the man I'm shaping up to be; because I am not attempting to be ordinary. I'm attempting to live up to an ideal that does not exist. All I am is me.
Tomorrow, I've invited Erin over for dinner. I'm proud of it. Because I wanted to know her better, wanted to extend that friendship; and I did, in such a short period of time. I'm making burritos, which I still need to shop for, and she's bringing the beer. I'm glad we'll be drinking.
